Dear Mr. Spitzer:
You might be smarter than I, and you might know more words than I, but I do not think you are using "remorse" correctly when you say that the "remorse" you feel will always be with you.
I think "remorse" might be the correct word for something you have done once, impulsively and suddenly, or maybe for something you have done a couple, or a few times, over a short period of time in your life.
I do not think "remorse" is the correct word for something you have done many times for many years and many, many cat naps.
I think that falls into the: "I am not sorry for what I have done but I am sorry that I got caught" file.
When I say to ML: "I am very remorseful that I just picked on Sadie" she says to me: "No, Annie, you do not feel 'remorse'. You are just sorry that you got caught."
I hope this helps you, Mr. Spitzer.
Annie Mosaic Cat